I’m up far too late tonight. And although I’m exhausted, I can’t stop tossing and turning in my bed. Grayheart and I were chatting today. I was making an attempt to be nice to him since we had a long conversation yesterday on how our interactions have been pretty negative as of late.
So he then drops this little bit of information on me… he claims he will not continue to see Raggedy Ann.
Um, excuse me? Did I hear that right?
My instant reaction was shock and then I immediately inquired why.
His response? Something along the lines of life being too complicated to date anyone. Between kids, a divorce, work, travel, trying to buy a house… it’s just not the right time to date anyone. (The idiot realizes this now? Really? REALLY?!)
I dropped the whole topic by saying I had nothing to else to say. (I held my tongue, I’m very proud.) I can’t decide if I flat out don’t believe him or if she got sick of him not being an available boyfriend or if he got tired of her. (I will say that I notice he’s been staying at his new place this past week.)
I’ll back up just for a second, though. In my conversation yesterday with him regarding my ice queen treatment, I told him that things would never be “normal” between us as long as that tart was in his life. Not saying this influenced his decision in any way but the whole thing is just odd.
I know, dear reader, you’re probably yelling at me that it shouldn’t matter. That I’ve probably put too much emphasis on her rather than him. You’re right, it doesn’t really matter. Our status will not change. But I might start to not hate him as much. And I might actually be able to treat this whole divorce process as something that’s “irretrievably broken.” (Phrase straight from the FL divorce paperwork.) Not the complicated, stringy mess of another woman’s influence.
And maybe it’s all a ruse so that I’m nicer to him. Jury’s still out. I guess only time will tell.